Motherhood

When I found out I was pregnant with my first 10 years ago I was terrified. And in that state of fear I hid, became ashamed and quieted. Its like I wouldn't let myself become what I was made for. In the last 10 years I have known joy, love, pain, fear, depth, laughter, tears that I never knew before. I am beyond grateful I have yielded and become a mother. To let God transform me, even when I didn't want to. That God's plans were greater and He knew me and the plans for me to give me hope and a future. So often in my becoming I can feel that fear, that shying away, and the shame and wanting to hide of my becoming. Thank God for the transformation as I become and am Mother. I am joyously centered and safe as wonderful changes occur around me. Here is to new seasons, new chapters and going into the cocoon to emerge. May you be safe as you transform and become.